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If you know me you know I am a wordy person, I always have a story to tell and I want moments fully documented. I want my kids to look back and have all the details, you can think of this site as our family journal, or more importantly the momma diary.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Nothing but the Truth, part 1 Katrena...

In May of 2000 I found out I was pregnant, young and excited we shouted this news to the world. I had not a care in the world, I was young (22), healthy, but obese. I weighed 210 lbs at the time I found out I was pregnant and at delivery I weighed about 240 lbs. My pregnancy was super easy other than morning sickness, which I had everyday up until the day I delivered. My only craving was Burger King Whoppers with cheese. I was happy, excited and totally thrilled to be having a baby and even more excited when I found out it was going to be a girl.

My pregnancy was pretty uneventful up until the end, when I was 8 months and at the point of my pregnancy where you are to be examined weekl,y my Doctor had a heart attack. We lived in Cedar City and there were only 2 OB's and a NP in the town. When my Doctor was out I was seen weekly by his nurse, but never examined. Two days past my due date I had an appointment, upon arrival I found out my Doctor was still out, that he was only doing deliveries at this point. I told the nurse that I was concerned because I had been leaking a green fluid and that my husband would be going out of town the next week and was there any way that I could possible be induced. She contacted the Doctor and he said that would be fine I was to come in Sunday night. In the meantime they were to run a non stress test on the baby to make sure she was okay. The NST was started, but my baby did not respond, they sent me out for some breakfast and juice and when I returned still no response, they even tried a more extreme NST where they put this thing up to your belly that is like a blow horn. With the blow horn she only responded once out of the three times it was tried. At this time they sent me over to labor and delivery where another NST was done, still no response. My Doctor happened to be at the hospital to release a patient so he came in and spoke with me, he said to meet him back in his office (which was connected to the hospital).

As I returned to my Doctors office, he did a quick exam and said that I was not dialated. He then did an ultrasound and said that this baby had to be delivered that day. I was taken back over to labor and delivery and induced. I again was young, and had no idea what was going on. I still did not sense the urgency of the matter, and was only beginning to put together that the 15 times a day she was moving was not enough. My parents were called and told to start heading down from Salt Lake. After about 6 hours of hard contractions, and continous d-celling of our sweet baby, I was still not dialated, nor had she dropped. At this time my doctor broke my water, and then there was complete chaos. My doctor gasped as the green fluid came rushing out of me, and I was informed that she needed to be born ASAP. I begged to wait for my mom and dad to get there, I wanted a blessing so badly and was informed there was no time to wait. My sweet Doctor, who was LDS, leaned down and told me that there was no time to wait, nor for a blessing, but that he knew that Angels were administering to me at that time. In less than an hour on January 19th at 6:04 pm my beautiful Katrena was born via c-section, the cord was wrapped around her neck 3 times and her body 2 times, I was also informed that her cord was extremely long and coiled, it looked very abnormal. I was given a quick glimpse and she was rushed away, it was at this moment that I realized the pediatrician was in the room waiting for her.

As I layed in the recovery room, my Doctor sat by my side apologizing over and over. I knew that the situation was out of his control. Yes maybe if I'd been monitored better things wouldn't have been so bad. Her little body was already beginning to die according to the Doctors, she had pneumonia, was in need of a blood transfusion and was having seizures. We came so close to losing this beautiful miracle, but she made it.

Katrena weighed 5 lb 5 oz and was 19.5 inches long. I had to wait 6 hours before I was able to see anything other than a picture of her, and 5 days before I was able to hold her in my arms. After spending some time at the hospital she was released home and other than continued respiratory problems, she was healthy. I was thankful for the beautiful miracle I'd been given. With every passing year, and pregnancy I become more and more grateful for my little miracle. The Doctor's believed that she was past due and that she was dying inside of me, now they have a different theory...

No hospital pic, didn't have a digital camera at the time and well I have to take apart the scrapbook to get to one, so I'll add it when I can, but you can picture a sweet tiny baby with a WHOLE lot of tubes, oxygen, etc.

3 months

March 2011

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Nothing but the truth...

I know that I have once again fallen into slacker mode. I have friends who have babies and are blogging about it days later. I on the other hand do not have an excuse for not blogging as of late, nothing is taking up all of my time, I can use the excuse that I once again fell really far behind and didn't want to leave anything out and therefore fell even farther behind, which is true, but is not the whole truth.

The whole truth is not pretty, but its my life and I feel the need to share. I need to share for therapeutic reasons, my husband will not be pleased with my airing of our laundry, but it needs to be said.

Over the next few days I will be sharing my story one that started 10.5 years ago with the birth of a beautiful little girl, and the trials and struggles of my journey to and through motherhood. Many of your are aware of my trials, some are aware of only part of my trials and others none at all. I believe that I will be sharing my story over 7 posts, and I hope that my story will help someone to not feel so alone, to know that there are others out there struggling as well. I will end with a wrap up post as to why I am currently in the place that I am at, mentally.